Brick Wall

hi

Brick Wall, tell me something

say something about you

anything to make the time

pass

a moment last

turn into years

turn this conversation on its ear, with

a funny joke

tell me what birds smoke

or how it feels when a knuckle is broke

Brick Wall, I think I’m all alone

down here

I was just wondering if you cared

to keep me company

to acknowledge my presence

when my friends didn’t

Brick Wall, you’re tall

really tall and far from where I stand

your tall and long and deep colored stone

won’t speak back at all

I’m almost out of tears to cry

of reasons to fight

to yell and shout

Hey, is something going on up there

is there a party or some secret stair

vagrant vigilantes spray painting graffiti

you got an undercover admirer that only visits

in the night

Wall, you’re cold to the touch

I’m just trying to figure out why you never say much

I love you

and I don’t know why

say something please

it feels like you’re ignoring me

alright,

I guess I’ll just leave.

clouds

we’re flying high 

drunk off clouds 

spiraling through

turbulence

i know you, stranger

familiar prick

don’t stain the sky red

before the sunset

let’s just cruise at this altitude

close eyes

free hair

wind whip through outstretched fingertips

sip serenity together

flocking with feathers

and all that jazz 

Who

who loves me?

who knows…

who knows himself.

who loves

who would leave.

who might?

who needs to be better.

who can tell in this world,

who loves me.

who trusts…

who trusts himself?

maybe

who lives in maybes

who regrets this.

who is who is.

who can blame her?

who can. 

who did.

who didn’t?

who wants more?

who always wants more than this.

who can blame him? 

who wants to love harder.

who hurts?

who is hurting.

who has bled.

who sees red. 

who doesn’t see me. 

who, are you…

who, where are you?!

who knew i could beg

who knew

who knew himself.

who loved me. 

who left.

who could blame her. 

who did. 

 

Invisible Man

I can disappear

fade the indivisible invisible nigga

bullets burn right through me

the man without a plan 

I stand stark naked 

screaming for you to shoot 

and you do

six times

eight times

forty four

You riddled the air

I’m not there

I’m on an island

combing the sand for sea urchins to bash against the rock

I’m shoveling fufu and egusi into my face with

my family in trap 

blocking the cops for the block party

I am anywhere but here 

school, graduation, another mugging

disappear child disappear

be as dark as the night your ancestors crawled from

teeth shining like stars

be black as the mines

your blood brothers mined for diamonds

fade when you see the guns coming

 

 

Wishing

here’s to not dying today

woke up again

still pissed that the sun rose 

I’m just really really really

not a morning person.

seriously.

if there was an option

to bury all morning people in a box

I’d do it

then carry on with my

miserable commute

haven’t lashed out at my mom lately

gotten into a fight

nope i am living 

good and boring

the way the Church intended

think about it

only exciting lives skirt around death

tempting to pants him

long life is a supposed sign of heavenly blessing

Church mandates state

you should keep your hands to yourself

quit messing with death

he’s secular and cantankerous

we don’t know who’s next

I’m vexed 

cause death’s party is poppin

the soul isn’t willing

& the flesh is already weak

i see the life i want to live

and know the risks

but without passion and pain

i don’t wish to wake up again.

 

 

Orchids

Orchids are ugly Orchids1 (3)

in the way that i bare me 

under pustules before blisters

is beauty

wilting

is any of this getting through clearly

i know that he knows that I’m pretty

doesn’t mean i feel it

i know i am naked as a peeled back onion

thousand hungry eyes

but only he sees me 

a sunflower in a field of roses 

i don’t want the recognition 

attention

adoration 

just want him to look at me 

Drums

Drums don’t beat. Hearts do. Hearts can’t break. Bones do. Bones don’t bend. Rivers do. Rivers don’t judge. People do. People don’t know how much I love you.

I do. 

Malcolm X–An Autobiography

I am the Seventh Son of the Son

who was also the Seventh.

I have drunk deep of the waters of my ancestors

have traveled the soul’s journey towards cosmic harmony,

the Seventh Son.

Have walked slick avenues

and seen grown men, fall, to die in a blue doom

of death and ancestral agony,

have seen old men glide, shadowless, feet barely

touching the pavements.

 

I hustler. I pimp. I unfulfilled Black man

bursting with destiny.

New York city Slim called me Big Red,

and there was no escape, close nights of the smell of death.

Pimp. hustler. The day fills these rooms.

I am talking about New York. Harlem.

talking about the neon madness.

talking about ghetto eyes and nights

talking about death protruding across the room. Small’s paradise.

talking about cigarette butts, and rooms smelly with white sex flesh,

and dank sheets, and being on the run.

talking bout cocaine illusions, about stealing and selling.

talking about these New York cops who smell of blood and money.

–by Larry Neal