The Ghost In The Mirror

Who’s that ghost in the mirror

fighting through the pain of being alone

making friends with the walls

ignoring phone calls

falling into the floor to find feeling

reeling about how so much is missing

searching obituary listings, dissing

half ass acquaintances  who crossed over already

steady crying jaded tears and drinking beers

bitchin about an empty bed

a hollow kitchen

and a house that’s hardly lived in

pickin dirty dishes out of the sink to eat on

So long since kind words were spoken

silence sounds like broken pipes

bursted, rehearsed it,

that pretty smile fades

numb

as she jumps

off the stool in the living room

Fool, you can’t kill what’s been dead

said the lover

Get me out of your head

fleeting meetings of our heated greetings

are all at an end

bend back into the fold

ascend or stay

either way just do it with out me

learn to bleed

read between the lines

friends

you can allow yourself to live again

 

 

I Walk

I walk

Hearts beat slow like molasses

Classes cant teach this

Cold flashes as wind passes

Little faces pressed up against glasses

Intense invincibility crashes

I walk

Through poets snaps

Heads high under fitted caps

Down piss stairwells and rainbow train maps

Past tense strangers as litter makes laps around the tracks

I walk

By gangs of accents that flood these streets

Red and black pleats on the scarves that match the weaves

Heats me headphones spill with fierce beats

Cars breathe

I walk

Seeing encroaching high risers and pushy condos forcing out mom and pop stores

Franchises envying the space across the project mother’s floors

While workers huddle exiled nicotine in front of their doors

Corner hustlers beg for more

I walk

Dreadlocks swing free as sirens sing

Birds screech while fluttering cross musical intersections that play for buildings

I walk

Triumphant stut past soup kitchen line where my father spent some time

Anklet bells chime like inmate shackles as they echo in the officers eyes that watch mines

Pupils black like trigger happy minds patrolling the confines of my borough

I walk

Past Brooklyn roots sucking memories out these trees

Fleets of preachers moving boulders

Africa seats himself amid the sunset on his knees

Praying for the priests in the country of nativity

I walk

Flipping my hair to portrait still water in a writer’s paradise

Helicopter star lights freckle the night hates on my smile lit bright like a torch carrier’s stride the day feels right

I walk

It seems all roads lead to the county of kings

Where drunks marry these blocks children liquor fiends

& conceit glistens off door knocker earrings

The hood stings like

Corruption flowing into my dreams

Like the sound of a smack to the back of the head as it rings

Like 10 000 mosquitoes bites on one of them hot ass summer nights

I walk

Admiring gargoyles that architects took time to chip into existence

Too bad they don’t exist in neighborhoods where copper skin is plentiful sense

Their meant to keep out bad spirits

This painful shutout we spray paint onto the breast of our buildings

Given shades of cool mints and reds so when the sun hits

It sprouts yellows and oranges in different hues

So beautiful that in blissful unawareness the bricks drink  our pride

images (24)so we are unashamed to walk in the daytime

© Perception 2011, Ariama Long

Let Me Be Held When The Longing Comes

Let me be held when the longing comes

by you

yours the arms, yours the tenderabstract willow

breath.

Tumble down into the quiet dark

of this embrace

night is come again.

Stay a little longer,

for no other reason than it is

good not to be alone always

let there be a song of remembering and not knowing

what is there except

a warmth and a blossom

of a feeling, sweetly,

gladly, home.

–Stephany

Inside

It hurts, the things of old,

attachment to the things of old.

 

Let go of them,

let them go as they are,

from afar comes the sound of

the scissors of the rag-picker.

–Kim Chiha

 

 

For Maya, Seven Ways To Look At a Black Notebook

1. Scribbled black ink drawings

forced knowledge

thrown to the ground

2. boyish hands

hold a black pen

jots down notes of legend

3. my black seam

never creased, his pages 

never filled 

4. poems spill from

line to line

juiced

with black sorrow

5. stranger to daylight

i, diary 

to blackened deeds

6. white spaces mixed with black lines

unified on 

one page

7. home to happy hands

and words

and black pupils

To Be Found

We stumble in darkness

warm bodies fumble at frilly things

like love’s cold hands

Feeling for a place to pour into

Trust is reckless

and we’re all strangers here

close enough to touch

desperate enough to connect rushed

relationships to broken parts

We’re bats blind at birth

hugging the walls to get a reading on self-worth

The id & ego are jokers

bouncing around with sneering red pokers

Who were you rigidly tapping

betting on to be your eyes

in this life long search

We’re more afraid with every breath

waiting for that little death

screaming a language unspoken

just hoping

to be found

 

 

White Bracelets

we all have old scars

and sometimes in winter

I can  still see what was

white bracelets

(let’s call them white bracelets

just as my grandmother used to say

when we fell down steep stairways,

stop crying or you’ll miss hearing

the stairs–they’re still dancing)

what was once white bracelets

what before that showed pink

what before that was raw & festering

what before that was agony

down to the bones

what before that was

almost blacked out

& being dragged by the tractor

in the barbed wire

what before that was

surprise & yelling:

can’t you STOP STOP

what before that was

lying in the grass

reading a blue letter

looking up into sun & clouds

that were riffed

and quiet like white bracelets.

–by Colleen Thibaudeau

I Am 22

Hello Nana

Grandma

Lois

I want to introduce myself

I graduated college today

celebrated another mother’s day

fell in love

learned to take the curve without brakes

sing your favorite songs

fry chicken

grow my hair to match yours

bake cinna buns

remember your funeral

suck less at math

drink peppermint tea since that’s all you ever gave me when I was sick

I am 22 and you didn’t get to know me

I am 22

and I still miss you

Ever Green

greenThe world tumbles

like leaves falling to the ground

Trees sway

Hold onto me now before winter takes you away

our love, an evergreen

strong and ever lasting

can delay the dead forests of reality

and keep the hurt at bay.