Dream Sequence

I slipped off the couch into my dreams last night. I met a strange man who told me I was going to die. Hesitant, feeling death’s chill rattle my teeth, I mustered a ‘But why as a reply’. Before he could answer, the ground beneath me began to crumble. And I tumble, over the ledge as he shouted at me ‘Unless.’ Wait as my entire life was to disintegrate. My arms and feet flailed in haste as I tried to make sense of my fate. I thought I was meant to do great things or is the future as grim as it seems. The reaper was unclear in his shouts, honestly, my fear of falling, drowned him out.splatter-comics-grim-reaper-small-59374 I can see the ever closing ground now.

The word started to come into focus as I silently licked the air of my demise. It never occurred to me that I should’ve cried for my friends, family, people who loved me. Instead, I thought of swaying into the edge of this cliff side and just ending this. ‘Unless’, resonated through my suicidal thoughts. He must’ve meant it as a sign of hope. Will I live until I am gray and old? How long will it take for my mom to cope? I cannot fly but my spirit floats, maybe I can suspend my impending doom if I can solve this riddle soon.

Unless you change your indifferent ways, there is no hope for us. That’s a heavy load to place on one person. Must I lead this revolution? A cause needs to be inspired first. These words will give birth to the thought that will move people to action, but they need more than a reciprocation of ignorance and violence, or they will tear this place apart. And, bloodshed will no longer be on freedom’s head but rained in the name of revenge on the innocent, the guilty, and indifferent.

Control has to pull in the reins. Set fire to their hearts, then ferment the flames.

I Saw You

I saw you

In a lilac grove of streets

Catacomb of buses

Comings and goings

Heres and theres

I thought about you as I paid my fare

Fairly certain of the where I was

And had been

Since you happened

I bare more of

Myself than I care to bear

I saw you

Sitting with kings

In my dreams

Spitting gold, telling them all there is to know

I saw your shadow

Old and gray

Bask in the presence of a thousand laughs

Surrounded by family

I saw you

Seeing me

That shit was deep

Deeper than anything I can conceive

Of accurately without explicative

Nervous, you know

I curse the day I discovered language was not enough

 

I knew

How to say whatever I wanted in poetry

Then I saw you

Lavender

Bend into each other

Trees stretching towards the sun

Wanting. That is always and forever.

To be curled up

Fetal

And endlessly warm. Underneath it all

Lies heat

Strong and sweet

Herbed lavender sweat

Sleep.

Hunted

My black is silent as the core of an iris

is dark as an obsidian gem

My black is night

We move through it with ease

the woman with groceries didn’t hear our paw padded sneakers creep on the concrete behind her

We are hunters

The red heart beat flashes blood as we run, tracking mis-deedful prints

I dodge black bodies swinging in my night

jump fenced hurdles

while some turn and fight

refusing to become the hunted

We unload barks that reach to the moon, resonate through people’s bedrooms, and shatter darkened windows

My claws grip the bricks as I maneuver past them

down an alleyway

into the corner

keeping low

and to the shadows, comfortable like warm pillows

I am a… lone, quiet and antsy

listening to the sound of my night stained by blood and rain

I whimper to mother moon

Save me from this city

She doesn’t hear me?

Return to the prowl hungry

from unanswered howls.

For even as lov…

For even as love crowns you so shall he crucify you. Even as he is for your growth so is he for your pruning.
Even as he ascends to your height and caresses your tenderest branches that quiver in the sun,
So shall he descend to your roots and shake them in their clinging to the earth.

All these things shall love do unto you that you may know the secrets of your heart, and in that knowledge become a fragment of Life’s heart.

-excerpt from Kahlil Gibran on Love