Fearlessly, my heart has departed
to embrace my beloved.
If its arms are too slack to hold her
what use is it?
The distances between us stretch long.
Must I think of the many forests
where deadly tigers rise up roaring
like the waves of the dark ocean
standing between us? I don’t dare.
Every Monday my life falls into disarray screaming depression binds me to the bed Every Tuesday hurts a little less I pick up the pieces and mull over the rest Every Wednesday I fall back down Every Thursday I pick myself up On Fridays I am born again On Saturdays I am happy so happy that I am scared it won’t last And then on Sundays the fear manifests I am alone and shaken by my own happiness distressed I count the hours attempt to clean this place call a friend and when he doesn’t answer desperately call again I talk to God for direction and forget to eat Lie awake in the cold because I can’t afford the heat I’m stuck in a stalemate with the wall wondering how I could want so much and not enough Of all the things I thought I’d be I never knew this could happen to me…
Thank God for the music and the mission for keeping me going