Poetry Was Like This

Poetry was the memory of adolescenceimages (2)

It was my mother’s sad face,

the yellow bird on a neem (margosa)tree,

my little brothers and sisters

sitting at night around a fire

of dry fallen leaves,

father’s home-coming,

the ringing of a bicycle bell—Rabeya, Rabeya

and the opening of the southern door

at the sound of my mother’s name.

Poetry was wading through a knee-deep river

across a fog-laden path,

the morning call for prayer, or the burning of paddy stalks

after the harvesting, the lovely dark dots of rye

on the plump crust of a homemade country cake,

the smell of fish, a fishing-net spread out

on the courtyard to dry,

and Grandpa’s grave under a cluster of bamboo leaves.

Poetry was an unhappy boy growing up in the forties,

a truant pupil’s furtive attendance at public meetings,

freedom, processions, banners, the piteous story

of a fierce communal riot told by my elder brother,

returning from the holocaust a pauper.

Poetry was a flock of birds on a char (sandy river beds)land,

carefully collected bird’s eggs,

fragrant grass, the runaway calf of a sad-looking

young farm wife,

neat letters on secret writing pads in blue envelopes.

Poetry was Ayesha Akhter of my village school

with her long loose flowing hair.

–Al Mahmud, Bangladesh

Knuckles and Knees: Part Two

images (18)I fought a door once.

My hands bled for all of five minutes.

I fought a man that same day, and they didn’t feel a thing. The scabs were more interesting to look at. They made my knuckles bulge and harder than before.

Darker too.

Now my knuckles match my knees.

Philly Story #63

Herbert Holmes is

homeless

he heaves heavy bags of trash for food everyday

hunger scrambling across his tongue

less homes than people

houses hollow of happiness he hollers

he mumbles then

humbled and homely

his Heavenly father is the only one to visit him on the streets

huddled against high-rises,

underneath society’s hazy gaze

Maybe he hates or waits for

a harbinger of humanity

Herbert Holmes is hopeless

but no less than a man

so why do I hesitate,

feeling helpless

The Poet

He sang of life, serenely sweet,

With, now and then, a deeper note.

From some high peak, nigh yet remote,

He voiced the world’s absorbing beat.

He sang of love when earth was young,

And Love, itself, was in his lays.

But ah, the world, it turned to praise

A jingle in a broken tongue.

–Paul Laurence Dunbar

 

 

NY Streets

Hosts of lonely souls coast through the streets

feel like desperation when I breathe deep

just trying to keep up with fast feet

if I stop my mind will catch thoughts that creep around my sleep

I am the gaping hole after the tower’s destruction

nothing but blood and hollow exoskeleton

hot to the touch so I must still be alive

But how could anything have survived

buch a vicious blow was so unexpected

It took my hope, structure, foundation when it crash landed

the phoenix reborn among these swaying rooftops

shake off ash and debris

where my heart beat stops is the location of the excavation

Dig me a new soul that’s not half-empty

with repatriation, false devotion, love and harmony

rebuild me in your eyes as how I’m meant to be

In memory of those who continue to die all around me

in these streets, malleable like hot leaded fingers

that grab at son’s sneakers

pushing him to the edge

the city barely gets by on integrity

push him inside, it’s dark down here

Broken back and crumpled spirit

I am the hole in the chest of concrete that can’t be fixed

Sublime in its suckiness

Does that make me beautiful as I coast through the city’s mist

brushing off unhappiness as the sun peeks from behind stratus clouds

ashy smoke bags hazy in their existence

as they hang in the sky over us

the sounds of sirens unheeded

so we burn our city to the bone with our music

The absence of those well-acquainted with the night

leave holes in already unfulfilled souls

When I had a mi…

When I had a minute or two, I’d throw a poem into the typewriter and try to work out a line or get a transition from one stanza to the next. But the business world gives you almost no time to do anything but business. You are selling your soul to the devil by day and trying to buy it back at night

–James Dickey

 

For Maya, Seven Ways To Look At a Black Notebook

1. Scribbled black ink drawings

forced knowledge

thrown to the ground

2. boyish hands

hold a black pen

jots down notes of legend

3. my black seam

never creased, his pages 

never filled 

4. poems spill from

line to line

juiced

with black sorrow

5. stranger to daylight

i, diary 

to blackened deeds

6. white spaces mixed with black lines

unified on 

one page

7. home to happy hands

and words

and black pupils