Don’t Forget Me

No one will ever replace you inside

no one will ever erase you from my side

as the dawn breaks into light

i promise not to hide from your sight

as you turn, walk away

i can hear something say

don’t forget me

i won’t forget you

even though the distance in my heart

just pushes us apart

if you love let it go

need this time to grow

but this feeling i’ve never known

and the further you go

i can hear my heart scream

don’t give up on me

i can’t let go

even though we’ve been led down this road

because of the hardness your heart holds

 

maybe in another life

you and i can

make it right

right?

Ginger Bread Mama

i love you ginger bread mama

ginger bread mama

all sweet and brown

love you

more than tired boys

love collard greens and candied yams

more than new watermelons

do the sun.

before you,

i was older

and owned a sky of sleep

and not even cowboy dreams

were poets enough to wish me you.

now in brownness warm

everything is everything and

our forms move in soft affirmations.

trying not to wake up the sun.

–Doughtry Long

 

He Hasn’t

He hasn’t messaged you,

don’t look at your phone, don’t dream about him

so loudly that you can taste where your ghosted lips

met his, don’t expect a text at four in the morning

even though you know he was wide awake, don’t

wait

he doesn’t think about you as often

as you think about him.

His heart beat and yours

are no longer

in sync. sleeping

this living hand

This living hand,

now warm and capable of earnest grasping,

would, if it were cold

And in the icy silence of the tomb,

So haunt thy days and chill thy dreaming nights

That thou would wish thine own heart dry of blood

So in my veins red life might stream again,

And thou be conscience

calm’d–see here it is–

I hold it towards you.

–by John Keats

Sweets

the laughter just eases out

we live in a capsule

time slows down

I breathe you in and out

People could be conquered,

galaxies lost,

cities ploughed,

we’ll still be here smiling that damned smile

like we’ve got a secret

and have had one for awhile

hurt piece done

the bad blood boiled, gone

together we fit

puzzle pieces

or dark chocolate in reeses

 

 

this little hand in mine

In case I never get to tell you this

In case you forget who I was

In case we have a fight or stop speaking

Or you have questions

I have always loved you,

Not from the moment you were born or

When you threw up on my favorite shirt

But forever

From the inception of my existence

It was intrinsic that I would love you

Cradle

Hold you while you cried

Sing Marvin Gaye songs to put you back to sleep

To dream of how much we might look alike

And threaten your first date

To tell you that ma is the best person you will ever meet

Daddy always tries to help you navigate a world of bullshit and lies

In my short time I have failed to change it for you

So I have tried to change myself

I have been fallen been broken lied to lain with

Kicked down left lifted up cherished

I have seen beauty beautiful people ugly things history unfurl

Conspiracy and the truth get rinsed out in the wash

I have hurt people been hurt cried lied been found out abused

I like to think that I know some things

But the brave admit what they don’t know

Openly brazenly and without fear

Because there is no shame in not having all the answers

 

Learn to cook and laugh at yourself

Find someone who loves to be bored with you and go on an adventure

Know where you come from

Look to the moon for humility

Look in the mirror for strength

 

And just in case I am not there

When you leave for prom or

Learn how to ride a bike

In case I am not there for your next birthday or class trip

In case I am not there when you need me

 

Know that your little hand in mine altered my destiny

I love you more than

Peach cobbler collard greens and chinese chicken wings

Past all reason and cognizance

I’d hold on tight and die for you

Because that

Is just what big sisters do

 

For Nazir Samaira Rachel Rebecca Jazmin and any others after…

Gravity and Center

I’m sorry I cannot say I love you when you say

you love me. The words, like moist fingers,

appear before me full of promise but then run away

to a narrow black room that is always dark,

where they are silent, elegant, like antique gold,

devouring the thing I feel. I want the force

of attraction to crush the force of repulsion

and my inner and outer worlds to pierce

one another, like a horse whipped by a man.

I don’t want words to sever me from reality.

I don’t want to need them. I want nothing

to reveal feeling but feeling—as in freedom,

or the knowledge of peace in a realm beyond,

or the sound of water poured in a bowl.

–by Henri Cole

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