Who Is Not A Stranger Still

Who is not a stranger still

even after making love,

or the even the morning after?

The interlude of sleep again divides

it is clear again where one body

ends and the next begins,

Think to think at each encounter,

we will be strangers still

even after making love

and long conversation,

even after meals and showers

together

and years of touching.

(excerpt from Nikki Giovanni)

Dreamed the tho…

Dreamed the thong of my sandal broke.

Nothing to hold it to my foot.

How shall I walk?

Barefoot?

The sharp stones, the dirt. I would

hobble.

And–

Where was I going?

Where was I going I can’t

go to now, unless hurting?

Where am I standing, if I’m

to stand still now?

The Broken Sandal by Denis Levertov

i know why

I know why the caged bird sings

I know why she tries to fly with broken wings

I know why

I know why

Because deep inside

Something is hurt

Mangled

I know why the dying bird cries for love

I know why her sing rings to the heavens above

Because she knows

She will die all alone

And cold

I know why she is blind to what hope brings

I know why she is incapable of these things

Because

Because

The other birds have all abandoned her

She is not a dove or a swan

No beauty for the light to shine on

Forgotten

God, I know why but I can’t help her

Because I am also a prisoner

Refugee of my thoughts

Captive of my heart

I can never fix the mangle, mold it into something better

So I bury myself in the shade of my cage

To await death’s laughter

Because

Because

There is no love for me

beyond bars the lying stars

rain acid on my dreams

singe my feathers and burn my beak

no tweet or sing to be sung

for the lonely birdy out on her own

without a flock

I know why she calls him back

The sorrowful raven with promises of tomorrow

Longing to trust all the black parts of him

I know why, stiff and dead

She points her head to the rising sun

And waits for love

that will not come

Farewell

Maybe on graduation day

I’ll sit there

with my last moments as a student

comforting the soul in my lap

courage will kick up in my chest

and I’ll wave good bye to this place,

The known.

I might baby step

Or barrel roll

Or nonchalantly tip my cap

to all you have made me

then stroll into the future’s night

with all the cares in the world

chalk up the deuces

and bid farewell

as I smile at my useless euphemisms

attempting not to cry

tears of apprehension

sadness

Or joy

I’ve sipped joe with the Josies

and learned from the best

for all, I am grateful

Now

onto face the rest